All my life I have struggle with my education. I have a language comprehension disability, which made school that much harder considering everything revolves around language. I so proud of myself for this past fall semester. I really pushed myself (some thought I was a bit too harsh on myself.) I wanted strait A's so bad, mostly because a a child I never thought I could do it. After receiving my grades for the semester, I was absolutely ecstatic to see that I had completed my goal for the semester.
      This past Saturday, I received a letter stating that "due to [ my ] outstanding performance last semester, [ I ] have been made the President's List."  This upcoming Tuesday I will be attending a ceremony to receive a certificate!!! After the ceremony, my family will be joining me for a celebration reception. I have been inside the building where this event will be held and it's Victorian style adds that extra feeling of being special. This semester is looking great again and continue to push forward, only this time with my head held just a little higher.

Over the past few years I've had a few. tracing the positive ones backwards for the past three years:
1) Obama's election
2) My friend saving my life and paid over $400 to help me
3) Holding my son after he was first born

Of course that last one is the biggest. Gosh, there is just nothing like that overwhelming joy when your child is finally in your arms for the first time!

I can write some wickedly creative poems! My short stories get a bit crazy and heavy and would probably get locked up for writing them but boy, looking back at them it's great because the passion is so vibrant!! also as I excersize and don't pay much attention to how my body feels I can push myself that extra step that is actually burning fat that I can't seem to do when I'm calm LOL. however, I must point out, being angry and being in raged is very different where I see one that can be used positively, such as the examples above, whereas rage is all blindingly negative and destructive in many ways.

ABSOLUTLY nothing!  I just finished my finals and I don't think my brain can hold anymore information at this current moment. I don't want to learn, do, think anything! it is my need and desire to reward myself to do nothing! and I am currently loving it!

          If we are talking about the very second that I am typing this without going into the rest of life, I want to get an A on my Final for Geology. I am currently at an average 90 (A-) so it's a make it or break it deal. If I get this A tomorrow, I will have a GPA of 4.0 for the semester.... *sigh* the thought is so rewarding.
          That's the first thought I had when I saw the question. Now, if we are talking on a larger scale, then it's something totaly different. I want my parents to keep their house and my dad to find a job. my dear parents are sinking so fast financially and I hate that i can't help them. There have ben so many times when they have bailed me out in life and now could be my chance to help them. Sadly, all I can do is sit and watch from the sidelines trying to comfort them with my words and presence. my family's happyness means the world to me. How could it not, when they are my world?

Hurt, Ambitious, Grounding

There are so many that I express myself. Honestly, it really depends on what I'm trying to express. When I was coping with things that the most difficult, when my life wasn't mine anymore, when I could have lost everything important to me, I wrote poetry and short stories. I would write by hand and it was the only thing that could slow my thoughts down. when it's about my passions, I draw and paint. When my positive emotions are soaring I can not stop my body from breaking into dance and depending on the specific mood will determin the kind of dance I do. If i'm in love, I dance Ballet. if it's excitment, I dance hip-hop. If I feel free, I dance mordern jazz. if i reflect on joys memories, I dance in expressive movment! I would have never survived through the horrors I was faced in my life if it wasn't for creative expression. I would have never feel as connected as I do to passions without creative expression. some day, after finishing college, I will share my nsight on the beauty of one's personal creative expression.

I am absolutely confused about how Gaia operates. How do I add my input on the community stuff??? How do I participate? For instance, I have no idea where this blog is going to go, other than my profile page. If this goes anywhere else please help me to understand.

my Passion is the arts and my inspiration is the environment. My calling is to educate, inspire, and heal individuals through the art and nature.

I love the many unique environment we have on this planet. The world' s complexity and beauty has always had me mesmerized. My mother once told me that when i was 8 years old, I sat watching the sunset over the ocean. when the last light disappeared below the horizon I said "I wish i could paint the sunset with as many beautiful colors the sky can make." These words were the beginning to my additional passion. My loving mother bought me several fine art mediums and matrirals to allow me to experiment. Today, I find great tranquility sitting deep into the natural world. I am filled with a tremendous joy when exploring and understanding the earth's many ecosystems. A great peace settles into me when sittinin the woods near a body of water with my chalk pastels and some paper. My goal in life is to share y experience with others, not only to heal and inspire, but to educate the people about how some ecosystems work and the importance of reservation and conservation. I feel many people are unaware of the simple ways an individual can help, and it starts in their homes and backyards. By offering classes in the all fields of arts and environmental science, and by invitig therepy groups to use my facilities, I hope to catch the interest of many people to experience what I have to offer.

My small house would be located on the sanctuary on my sanctuary, which would open to the public at dawn. In the morning, I would walk around my property gathering samples, checking habits and on my few rescued and rehabilitated animals. I'd spend some time updating myslf about new discoveries and events in the local area. that pertain to my field of study. I feel it is important to be prompt when responding to inquries involving my program, so I would check my email and mail. I would head over to me studio, behind my house, and prepare for my afternoon art, dance, and wrting classes. as the sun sets, I would ensure that all public members have returned to thier vehicles to head home. Once I have finished dinner with my family, I would get ready to teach my night classes, Creature of the night and The Sky is the Not Limit. Next, I would return to my house to enjoy my beloved home and its members . This would be my life in a nut shell. It may seem like a lot, however, much of what i have mentioned would be scattered throughout the week and months. This type of lifestyle would allow me to create my own schedule, be with my family, home school my children (if they wanted,) all while still doing everything I love. I used to call this job my dream; today, I call it my goal.